Down, but not out.

I feel a lot of time has past since I launched the "Bear it up" book.
I can't say I've had much chance to do any more shoots in that time.

I would chalk most of that up to changes in my day job, taking on more responsibility in a changing team of varying experiences.
While I may continue to be on the quiet side for the remainder of this year, I'm still planning on some scenic photography opportunities in Europe later this year.
Not planning on beginning any new projects until early next year, but still open for photo shoots if requested.

The "Bear it up" Book is as always available for sale online here andin stores at Eagle Leather, Hares and Hyenas bookstore and ArtBoy gallery.

In the mean time, I've been working on starting a side to the photography; silicone moulding!
More of that in due time.

"Bear It Up" - The bear book

So... I may have.... over the last few years... been working on a major project.

It's taken a lot longer to make than intended, a lot of hands to be involved and MANY hours of sitting in front of this computer going, how do I make this work?!


I'd like to FINALLY announce the bear book, "Bear It Up", is finally completed and in pre-launch phase!!!

This 64 page book of some of the most sexy guy I know, is a full A4 size of them showing you how you can be sexy, in any body shape you might be.
From the slim to the very large, all these guys has some reservations about getting in front of the camera, but almost all of them walked away with comments such as "I feel much more comfortable in my own skin having done that".

The book is in store locally (and in store only) at Hares and Hyenas, Eagle Leather, Mannhaus, ArtBoy Gallery and the Laird hotel for you to have a flick through and see for yourself what it looks like and place pre-orders there.
Online pre-orders are via my website (CLICK HERE) thru the publications tab.
The pre-orders are open until Easter with the Launch party on April 28 at one of the above venues.  You'll have to pre-order a book for me to tell you which. :)

Thank you also to EVERY single person who has been involved in this huge project of mine.  I really hope the effort goes into showing someone that you can be big and beautiful within yourself.

A Breakthrough from a bad run

Its getting closer to Xmas, so of course the pre-holiday craziness us upon us.
Of the last few months there's been a fair bit happening both on and under the surface, most of it external to myself directly, but has direct effects to me.

The most prominent is the American election, how the stocks crashed on the day, the constant talk and fear of what the world may look like given the things that have come from both this and other international changes.
More locally with my day job, taking on way more than my state branch can handle over the last few months which has lead to many hours, days and even weeks just being to focused, occupied and driven mad with all the technical issues and lack of resources to achieve a productive outcome.  Leading to many moments where the stress of dealing with the day job (and often after hour coverage of breakdowns) has lead to social and home relational strains.

Speaking of home, there seems to be a pattern where one foundation of your day to day life, the others start to crack under the strain, as too has some of the things around the house; the spa, the automatic gates, prominently leaking taps, failing door hinges, etc.  So while I've been away from work, these homely issues also have needed my attention and effort to maintain status quo.

While I've had a short break here and there, I've always felt like i have been playing catch up just to a neutral state of mind and being with the world around me.

Which now leads to today.
Today I feel, at least at this very moment, that I've finally had the energy, inclination, time and mental capacity to get not only things repaired, but a few minor improvements achieved as well.

  • The Automatic gates (while I've been trying to finalised the repair of) are now working with a new control board. (Old board stopped opening one side of gate)
  • Replaced the wood screws with stainless steel screws that hold up the replacement toilet cistern (Rust resistant screws basically) as well as beaded the toilet base with silicone.
  • Cleaned and vacuumed the work car (Which i spend 10+ hours in a week) in order to de-clutter my work space and hopefully help improve my mental space by reflecting it in the physical space.

    Oh, yeah.... 

    I also finally finished and have ordered the first publication of my Bear book that has been in the works for 3 years.   Stay tuned for more info on the launch of the book early next year and where you can get your own copy.

    So with all that done, I can look toward the next 4 weeks with a bit more confidence that something has been done for the better.  I'd like to hear what you've considered a personal achievement for yourself recently. 

Post Holiday musings

So post mid year craziness, first with the lead up to holidays, trying to get the chess pieces in position work my day job, preparing the house for a house sitter, getting all the travel documents and dtravel items in check.  It was hectic, not to mention the few people that had organised to do photo shoots as well.
Once I was somewhat on holidays from my day job, there was the annual Southern hibearnation festival I help out with doing the event photography.  This year, as I was unable to be at all the events, it was a combined effort between me and another photographer, Frank from the club.  It was tiring work but i think we mostly got the main points covered, although admittedly not up to my highest standards of years gone by.
No sooner had I handed the final role to Frank to finish up, my partner and I were up and away for three weeks in the US of A.  Our destinations, LA, NY and SF with a return to LA before coming back home.  We saw from the vastness of markets and Downtown sights to the heartwarming, awe inspiring, mournfully remembering wonders that those three cities could present in our time.
Old friends rekindled with, new friends made and memories with my boyfriend to last decades.
I've added some of the many photos I took along the way to give some insight into what we saw ourselves. 

Having been back now a full week since those whirlwind of times, I now look forward to projects and plans for the next 6 - 12 months and beyond. 

  1. Over the next month until the end of August, finish photographing models for the Bear Book project.  Between August and September, design the book and by October have a kickstarter Page in place to begin funds for publication, hopefully by late November, early December (hint, hint, as a Xmas present).  Stay tuned for that one!
  2. Complete arrangement of the studio garage, for those who have shoot with me in the home studio before, I now have more space since adding a storage shed next to the garage.  This has also given me the opportunity to paint the floor of the garage, which means i can potentially work with more liquid based photo ideas.  hopefully will get that somewhat sorted before the summer.
  3. Update this website with some of the more later sessions that i haven't gotten to final editing with.  Mainly due to them being part of the bear book project, so once i've consolidated those designs I can add the other good ones here.
  4. Finally, as I've mentioned in my previous blog post, beginning the next project along with the BDSM community, to create a book looking into what BDSM life looks like. What long term D/S relationships and the ideals and philosophy kinksters live by in their day to day lives.  I'll be posting the brief for this within the next month, but the book will be inspired by both sex advice and people's own views of their lives.

Having gone for a few weeks in very nice weather, now coming back to some fairly cold and windy days, I have you all stay warm and safe.  AND PLEASE watch where you're going if you play Pokemon GO.   I've almost hit a few things myself, so it's as much a self reminder as a general one.

Have fun and hope to see you soon. ;)


My next Major artistic venture

So it's April of 2016, approximately 2 months off the timeframe I'd initially set out to finish the graphic Bear book project.  As of yet, I still feel like I could do with a handful more models, perhaps 5 - 10 more.  People of ages 40+, more muscular or chubbier builds to give a broad spectrum and variation in whom I've captured for this, at least, first book of the variety of bodies in the bear culture.
If however by mid August I don't seem to get any more, I think I'll have to close the gates and work with what I have to produce the final result.  The collection process is wearing a bit thin on my enthusiasm now and i'd just like to get a final product finalized.

Note: If you know anyone willing and able to help out, PLEASE get hold of me.  I have some free weekends and evenings to work with.

HAVING said that, I have started a new idea on what I'd like to produce next.
It's now more focused on the BDSM/Leather community and more specifically, the rules and ideals people live by in their sexual lives and in the more broader leather life they lead.

Still brainstorming the final outlay and direction of it, but again, call out for people in the Melbourne area who'd be interested in being photographed and sharing some of their thoughts would be appreciated.

Quotable Quotes - 1

Quality is remembered long after the price is forgotten.
— Ed Sabol

I've heard a different version of this -  "The Taste (Quality) is remembered long after the wait is forgotten".
It's a catch cry that Nando's uses quite a bit, I like it for a lot of reasons.

Firstly it's a catch saying to savour the good things in life, as we're all too often driven by instantaneous gratification seeking, particularly since the dawn of internet accessibility.

Secondly, it's a statement of intent and later, one of reiteration.  How many times have you gone back to the same place for a coffee because they make GOOD coffee?  True some times you go it's busier than others, or you rework your routine to allow for that extra wait for the GOOD coffee.  But you do it not because of the wait, but the anticipation is paid off with quality craftsmanship or some other aspect.

I found myself quoting this lately as I rush to organise photo shoot and book models. But once the shoot is done and the images are digitally sitting there in a holding pattern to be edited, it can often take a while.  Those of course are the photos that don't have a deadline for some chronological end of their meaning or aren't paid sessions where the client has a fair expectation of a set turnaround.
These are the photos that have creative and purposeful meaning by how i shoot them, with intent as to how they will be conveyed at a later time in another portfolio type context.  So rushing to edit them sometimes isn't as productive as letting them sit and emotionally settle in my mind as to how to finalise their meaning.

To this, let me explain now that I will not rush work to appease the anon's of the internet that see I've taken photos of models (as sexy and handsome as they are), so that you can get a quick thrill of seeing them in another context before I'm ready to present them as they are intended.

Quality of presentation is how I like to portray this studio, nothing less.

Turning a negative to a positive

One of the many issues of being a photographer is having people cancel a booking with you.  Like many things its annoying, particularly if there's no communication prior to the agreed booking that there's been a change on their end.  If out of courtesy I'm informed beforehand I'm usually bummed out but not completely frustrated at the situation as I can often redirect my intended energies on to other productive things.  As has been this case this week.

My intended model whom I'd book this weekend had in fact got a new job and was now working at the time of the booking. I had found this out early enough that morning that I could indeed redirect my energies elsewhere.  Namely researching option for blinds for the master bedroom which will be painted and cleaned in the coming month.  In my travels I could finally dispose of very old clothing to a new home, recycle the 4 plastic bags with of plastic bags and reconnect with a few friends of mine that run a car wash down the main industrial drag.  Which allowed me to line up another model in discussions. :)

The other positive thing to come about this weekend was the music system in my studio/garage has been until late, only CD's or a very constant static with the faintest hints of radio signal.  As you can imagine this is not conducive to inspiring audio for any model who needs a mood setter.  So I finally decided to complete the project to wire up speaker cable through the garage from a computer in the garage, to the CD/Radio system. I now have MY OWN MUSIC, STATIC FREE!

So while I am still fretting about getting enough photo sessions in with a few models in time to release my next calendar for the coming year, I can atleast make use of the fact I can now set the mood for photo sessions and help alleviate my working hours alone in the garage.

Now to fix the computer properly...

Life's limitations

Hi reader.

It would feel like there hasn't been any new developments since I started the blog and the website, but much has happened behind the scenes.  Alas, most of it has to do with my daytime job and its impact on my time and energy to carry out other project like this one.

However, in the brief moments I've had to assemble models and other meetings I've achieved the following.

  1. Agreed to be the photographer for Southern Hibearnation 2014.  More about the event can be seen at
  2. Prepared a few shots for the Men on Men art competition.  More about that can be seen at
  3. Built a new workbench in the garage/home studio so i can now place things on it without tipping it over. (Previously it was a few uneven planks sitting on a old kitchen bench)

In short, a lot of background upgrades and repairs to the home and ego.  Stay tuned for more as events develop.

So it begins...

Today i wake up to realize the website launched without me knowing. Oh well, Welcome i guess.

Over the next few weeks I'll be lining up the portfolio of photos and getting a few more models sorted for new shoots.  Among my work schedule that is.

Please comment with some positive and CONSTRUCTIVE suggests.  Thanks!